OMG so today i went to luna park wioth my year! it was sooo sooo fun i went on every ride it was great. ON the bus ride up i sat next to dan, and on the way home i sat next to dan and kurt for a bit (squashe dinto 1 seat) and then i sat with kale and gen, then justin for a while, then beau. haha it was heeps fun. got to hang out with people i normally wouldnt have. it was a great day. i hung around with aaron a bit (jew). haha there were alot of jewish jokes made today lol poor aaaron.OMG the rides were heeps fun and stuff. this one that goes round heeps quick and like pushes u it was heeps good, and me and jess and erin were pissing ourselves laughing at beau who was across from us like... shtting himself. he was heeps scared. ahaha me coco matt tam and jake were spirtting on people while we were on the pirate ship. lol it was hilarious. i know i know spitting is gross but it was fun. and me and aaron spat on people while we were on the Big wheel thingy. fun fun fun!!!!
omg it was mannys last day and i didnt get to talk to him or see him at all. i feel bad.
Corey wanted me to go to a party tonite but meh... im so tired. and i didnt feel like having sex with him, wich is no doubt what he wanted. lol stupid corey.
walked home from the skewl with dan. dans kewl... n hot. haha
just reading an email from the toddmiester. haha he thought i was at skewl or something.. lol crazy fucker he is. nah hez kewl.
im talking to jess danielle and justin. gosh... i am so happy right now. everything is good i think. i love this feeling. i love this day. wow.
These kids; trapped in a struggle and Nowhere to head at night Hair full of trouble is all that they're getting And nobody knows tha suffering they go through And u wouldn’t believe em if they told you
Trapped in a struggle and Nowhere to head at night Hair full of trouble is all that they're getting And nobody knows tha suffering they go thru And u wouldn’t believe em if they told you
So many songs, so many times Tha world had to hear so many rhymes About how life is for struggles Minority groups, kids with single mothers Young homies turn hustlers, killing for money It’s kinda funny how tha crime rate is so high In suburbs where family ties are low, n suicide on tha rise Oh why - so many die coz in their eyes Tha mistakes they made, can’t be erased tha only way out is to take their life ‘N if they don’t do it sudden then they’ll do it slowly Polluting themselves with drugs, cause they on this world lonely So we as a nation just class em as a waste of space N if they don’t help the economy then strip them naked Put em on tha streets n make sure tha police hate them N feed tha public phony information on tha evening news "Kids may bomb police stations, to get at tha boys in blue" This song goes out to tha whole justice system Instead of listening to tha kids with tha problems They just tick them off more Until the kids in prison or is dead before he’s 24
These kids trapped in a struggle and Nowhere to head at night Hair full of trouble is all that they're getting And nobody knows tha suffering they go through And you wouldn’t believe em if they told you
You probably heard tha news about tha 14 year old kid Who went to Woodridge to get a stick but got his neck slit What you’ll expect in, tha situation that he was facing With all of these expectations he just wanted to get wasted But tha mistake he made was fatal. What about my mate who put a rope around his neck But he choked to death instead coz tha fall never broke his neck See both of them, were trapped in a struggle none of us could comprehend Tha younger was in need of weed, tha other had problems with his head Now they’re both dead, and tha same thing happens time n time again Kids dying all tha time n leave us asking "why my friend" N then there is those who run away from home Live on tha streets n chrome Can’t deal with tha pain of tha world so they get stoned Sit in a zone, become known as tha local drones With low vocal tones, they communicate with hopeless groans N nobody knows they came from broken homes Plus to us their just emotionless clones And tha pain plagues their brains they can’t maintain healthy lives Change is all but easy; a life of crime is all but nice Plus life isnt worth living unless ya given tha chance to fight Drugs might not be tha answer, but who knows wrong from right
When ya parents drink whole bottle of wine, n puts tha hose in tha coke bottle, A lot of tha time, kids don’t know any different It’s like they losing their minds, can’t get a hold of their visions Think they’re doing just fine, but they still in the struggle Yeah tha kids of this time, in a whole lotta trouble If you in trouble, jump over the puddle Somebody out there really loves you, Loves you like you never been loved, yeah, Loves you like you've never been loved
These kids trapped in a struggle and Nowhere to head at night Hair full of trouble is all that they're getting And nobody knows, nobody knows
These kids trapped in a struggle Nowhere to head at night Hair full of trouble is all that they're getting And nobody knows tha suffering they go thru And u wouldn’t believe em if they told you
These kids trapped in a struggle Nowhere to head at night Hair full of trouble is all that they're getting And nobody knows tha suffering they go thru And u wouldn’t believe em if they told you
Its 2:30am. im still up. im not tired. im listeining to pure morning - placebo.
im happy right now. i havent felt... actually happy for ages. its weird. things have been so fucked up the last few months, but at the moment, tonight, things are ok.
Read jess's blog before. Shes very lucky to have alex, and hes very lucky to have her. It must be nice to have someone love you.
its funny. my dad haz like no food in the house. but lots of alcohol. im not complaining.
looking around the room these are some things i see.... shelves full of dads darts tropheys. the tv and dvd player computer desk with cds all over it coffee table with jar of nuts sitting on it, remotes, magazines etc a guitar a big pile of clean clothes waiting to be folded speakers sitting everyhwere a vaccum cleaner. and that kinda all.
i feel like going for a swim in the pool. i miss the pool. i picked the colour, bright sparkly blue. aand its 11 meters long. and heeps nice. so tempting...
now im listeing to My My Hey Hey.
the lead singer in jet iz so fukin hot.
so iz billie joe from greenday. fuk hez hot. i love him.
im wearing my pink paul frank boxers and my white bonds singlet. im heeps comfy. bit cold thought. probably should have put on underwear.... i mean... i AM wearing underwear....lol:P
well... i think itz time i went to sleep....
later dayz people
STRANDED ON MY OWN, STRANDED FAR FROM HOME.... or something
haha im watching late night rage. its so fukin freaky/hilarious. me and jess saw this heeps kewl song stranded by the saints. itz awesome. im talkin to joe and todd too.
im at dadz we went for a swim before. it was cold so we did laps. and we had rces and i won. cuz he sux.
went to jameses new house today. played with hiz kittens they r so kute.
didnt go to skewl today. have a cold. slept until 2. then watched a movie. then i dont remember.
the oc is coming on now...
my dad is up. he is sitting on the lounge with my mum. i hate her. especially when he is around. and when she calls me "em". like we're friends or something.
my brother got a new house or something. meh.
im listening to greendays "longview". its one of my favourite song. its one of those songs that mess's with your head. you know what it feels like. i dunno.
All weekend ive been with gen! Fuk im glad to get away from her. Haha jk. But yeh Friday nigthshe slept ova cuz we waz gunna go to the after party but then couldn’t be bothered cuz it was rainin and I had dance the next day. So yeh hqd my dress rehersal, went ok. Then slept at gens last night we watched a movie and stuff… had lotz and lotz of laughs.
Yeah so Daniel and coco are going out… how kewl. Watched the movie prozac nation with gen. It was good… very real. But yeh.
Just bummed round today down the street… there is this heeps kewl antique lounge in the antique shop that me and gen want.
Ive been listening to Encore all weekend. My fav song is Rainman. Yellow brick road is a kewl song. I like the verses in puke, and the verses in big weenie. I like toy soldiers. Love just lose it and crazy in love… Well anyways… im off. Bye byes
Im home sick today. science test tomorrow. i better not miss out on my double of art. or ill be really fucked off.
The O.C tonight. Only 4 more episodes left.
Just reading jess's and Bianca's blogs. their all good at writing and such. theys both heeps cool.
now im listening to flagpole sitta - Harvey danger. Its a kewl song. im singing so fukin loud. Mums gone to get the new rolling stone magazine and sum other shit.
Saw dad on sunday.
I miss having my phone. :( im gunna get it fixed soon. i miss getting msgs n such....
ive got my dress rehersal on saturday arvo. how fukign fuked. very.
Why hello blog, i feel as though a lifetime has passed since ive written in you. but no no, just a few days. and doubt ill be writing in you much anymore, as mother is taking away my beloved internet until i get off my moniter. What a stupid fucked up ugly shithead bitch of a mother.
Anyways, today my year had a math test. i didnt study at all, and i thought id do really badly. But i answered almost every question and it didnt seem that hard, so touch wood, ill do ok.
Me and gen went for a huge walk this arvo. it was fun, i like walking. i love gen, shes great. we also stopped in at graces and we sat out the front of her place for a while, talking, sending msg's to tom. lol she likes him heeps so we told him. haha. ah well.
Went to the show on the weekend, it was alrite, not gr8, but it was alrite. jess stayed over, so that was kewl. did nothing on sunday.
i have a new favourite song! its called 'Jesus was way cool' by King Missile. go download it, its fukin awesome. luvs it. heh.
well... theres 39days til d12 (im not goin, but friends r) 39 days til Christmas 41 days til im outy.
FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU UUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!! !!! I JUST WROTE THE LONGEST FUKIN BLOG I WILL EVER FUKIN WRITE IN MY ENTIRWE FUKIN LIFE AND IT WAS ALL ABOUT MY DAY AND EVERY FUKIN THING I DID AND EVERY LITTLE THING ON MY MIND. THEN MY STUPID PIECE OF TWAT COVERED SHIT COMPUTER RETARTS ITSELF! ARGH! I WAS CLOSE TO PICKIN IT UP AND THROWING IT OUT THE WINDOW. FUK! NOW I AM REALLY ANGRY AND PISSED OFF AND I DONT FEEL LIKE WRITING OR TALKING OR DOING ANYTHING. ARGH.... FUCK THIS....
As if I was ever happy But with you I made make believe With you I could fly With you I was free Where have you gone, what have you done Why aren’t you here now Have a good one.
I see you now and then But do you ever see me smile? Is this what you call fate? I wont be seeing you for a while.
Get home and go to my room Mums not home Don’t want to know myself anymore, I guess I am all alone My last day here, I hope you had fun I cant feel anymore, where am I supposed to run? So I guess this is it, just have to pop a few more Look in the mirror, see forever as I fall Want to know what it was? It was nothing at all.
something i wrote. dunno wot it is. cant be bothered explaining it.
hmm just talking to one of my friends bout depression, and about how some people are always telling people about their so called depression and how alot of the time theyre just saying this for attention. When your depressed, you dont go around telling people. you dont want attention like that. Depression is a serious issue, its not a label you can just throw around for attention. hmm...
Listening to Mad World. Its a hell song. i also love the song 'dangerous type' by letters to cleo. its heeps good. i think thats who its by... hmm anyways...
the show on the weekend... not really that excited... had a history test today... it was heeps hard. i made up so much bullshit and jsut wrote woteva. ah well. maths test next monday, i really wanna go well. mum says i should get sum tutoring, and im thinking its not such a bad idea.
I let my friends cut me a fringe today for 5 dollars. haha... stupid me. its so crappy. im gunna get it fixed up tomorw arvo at the hair dressers. ah well... 5 bux... worth it.
Mum didnt care that im on a moniter, so thats kewl. but i m really angry at her. she tried to blame our money probelms on me! she says i spend too much money on clothes or something. wen she doesnt have a fukin job! i was so fuucked off. she such a fukin bitch.
I miss my dad. i neva get to see him. but i guess i should be grateful, biancas dad passed away a few years ago... im sory bianca. but yeh... still.
no1 is on the net.... well sum pplz are but... yeh im bored... mite go.... cya
Rachael and I watched donnie darko today at my place. It was really good, really sad at the end though. It really makes you think, but yeh good movie.
Then wafter we watched it we were walking down the road to rachaels plaCE and we were talking bout death and life and stuff, and we both stopped and looked across the road and this little girl on her bike was about 2 inches away from an old man in his car backing out of a driveway with gardens on either side blocking his view. She was so close to getting hit. If she had of ridden her bike just a bit slower she could have been really badly injured, or even killed. It was really strange. and scary. then we walked away...if she had of gotton hit what would of happened? we would have been over there we would have seen it happen. what if she died? we would have been so messed up. and yeh....
Reading biancas blog. Supposebly when your 14 and 9 months you get to choose where and who you live with. in march (i think) ill be that age. hmmm...
I really want to get my p's. i wish i was older. well... no i dont want to be older. i just wnna be able to drive. get out of here for a while. When i get them im going on a road trip with rachael and co. WE just gunna drive wheerever the road takes us. and stuff. will be kewl.
I wish i was smart. Like not just skewl smart, i mean like... smart bout life n stuff. hm...
i think imight go ring gen... see if she wants to come for a walk.
Although australia only have 0.003% of the worlds polualtion we hold 21% of the worlds gambling machines.
thought that was pretty funny...
anyways... gens was fun last nite... had dance thing today, slept alot, got on the net. finished dinner 10 minutes ago. also went shopping, got a new top, earings and other stuff.
got nothing to do tomorrow... its gunna b soo boring. me and rach r gunna hang out i think. hmm.... not many people are on msn atm.
Skewl was pretty shitty today. Mrs V, my english teacher is putting me on a moniter. i have to get my teachers and MUM to sign it. argh....
me and gen hung out all arvo, it was pretty fun. we went for a big walk again. we went for 1 yesterday also.
Right now im eating my tea (bbq'd lamb chops, sausage, mushroom and onion.) covered in tomato sauce... yumm.
im also drinking green tea. i neva used to like it that much, i jsut drank it because it makes ya metabolism fast, but now i love it! its like addictive.
I think tam and azza are fighting. Azza's all upset bout it i think, she seems shitty. either that, or shes got her rags. haha
aww good ol' jezzmeister left a comment. thanks jess, no1 ever comments anymore:(. but yeh i lvoe u heeps. and i also love brian. more then you. haha jk. xoxo
Hmm... Skewl was very average today. Grace, Gen, Rach, lauren and i hung out at graces joint after skewl. went for a swim and stuff. it was alright. Felt so fat in my swimmers. Ive put on like 5 kilos (im guessing) whilst ive been on holidays. argh. suks. Going on a diet, starting from........Nnnnnnnnnnnow!
mums out, the tv isnt working cuz the vcr thing is fucked cuz we cnt afford one that was built in the last 50 years. its a piece of shit. fukin mum should get a job.
Got hardly any sleep last night. Felt like shit. Im not sure why. shouldnt have done it. but i did.
ive been biting my nails the last few days... i dunno why. it suks.
hmm... well... that is all for today.... goodbye for now.
I love halloween. I used to always go trick or treating. Me and Gen were going to go tonight but she was int rouble and couldnt :( so im quite upset. It would have been so much fun too!
I was just reading biancas blog. She doesnt like Raymond!!! (everybody loves raymond). WHAT?? raymond is so kewl. i love him! gosh....
I dont like australian idol and i rarely watch it, but tonight i watched a bit because it was 'big band' and i like swing music and such. anyways.... Anthony was singing 'fever' and he was so darn good! i really hope he wins, hes a really good performer. He doesnt just sing, he entertains. hes great. And im not just saying that cuz he is attractive, actually i dont find him that great looking anyway, not my type. but yeh... hez a champ.
Im reading about cam girls in a magazine. you know.... girls with webcams in their rooms and stuff.... they make people pay a subsription fee. Some girls make heeps of money out of them. People send them gifts and stuff too. I know its dangerous and stuff... but its a pretty clever idea. and people give them more moneys by pposting nmore relealing pics of them. its like... an easy way to make money. and itd be pretty kewl too..... people wanting to watch you and stuff. i dunno.
Me and gen bummed round town today. Got chippies... went down to the river. then we jsut hung out at her house... twas fun. got some interesting goss.... some of its kinda sad actually. bout friends... but yeh not going into that.
Yeep.... its true.... i have fallen in love. with this really really hot guy out of the movie grind. :D i know you prob got all excited there thinking i was talking about you... but no, alas i am not. its such a good movie and there are soooo soooo many hot dudes. i wish i could skate.... ah well.
yeh hes so hot.... i dunno his name and i cant be bothered to go find out so yeh. but its the blond dude. the main guy. yum
Yeh so me and gen hung out today, got chips watched a movie etc. twas kewl.
I miss jess so much.... you dont relaise how much you need some things until they leave you. And i need her heeps right now. i wish i could talk to her. ask her how shes feeling and stuff. my phones broken so i cant even msg her, its suks. shes been there for me always and i cant be there for her now... how slack. i hope shes ok. i love her heeps. i just hopes shes feelin ok.
Skewl was weird today... all week really. Fuck, people are always like "whats wrong" "r u ok" "u dont seem ok" "whats the matter". hows aboot ya mind ya own fukin business? hows aboot that. i know they is only trying to be nice but it dont help at all bugging people bout things. theys all like "ur so quiet" "u seem so sad". ahh welll.
You know who you are.... dont do it ok. we both know its stupid. so please you have so much goin for you, ur a great person..... fuck i guess i cant really say shit to you. i dont wanna tell u how to live ur life, but i jsut dont want u goin anywhere.
sometimes things jsut fuking suck for no reason.
so rachael and me arent friends anymore or something. she says i fuk everything up and that im the most selfish person she knows. meh its probabaly true, but i dont give a fuk. i havent done shit to her. theys her issues not mine, she cant take her shit out on me...
.....well we are back at skewl now, im sick of it already. but its good to see my friends. but yeh.... im good atm... me and todd hung out past 2 afternoons.... its been kewl. yeh... its been very hot at skewl.... that suks... ah well...
a poem i wrote just then comment n tell me wot u think its not very good but woteva
behind these smiling eyes theres tears and silent cries theres shadows and theres lies theres a girl that slowly dies
no one seems to care or wonders why shes there she feels so bare as these eyes so cruely stare
they do not know her name they do not feel her shame they do not feel her emptiness they do not feel her pain
the girl that they once saw she no longer bleeds for something else she no longer starves for something less its a pity no one could see how little was left behind her smile because maybe just for a while she could be happy
im so fukin bored no1 is on msn and nothings on tv
how shite
and tommorow is the last day of holidays and i will mmost likely spend the day sleeping and sitting around home oh joy sounds fun
went to the pool today with gen grace and coco it was kinda fun it was cold tho so that kinda sukd they were all commenting on how much weight i had lost that was pretty kewl i guess
i felt sik b4 but now i feel ok not gr8 but ok
i spent like an hour in the shower tonight and the hot water stopped n it got all cold
it seems sum1 is talking to me ahh tis elliot oh joy
i like pissed james off last nite and he bloked me haha ah well
dungog show soon that might b fun
playing with my mobile tis fun i dont gots alotta credit tho that kinda suks
i kant wait til i get my p's i'll just leave weneva i want that will b kewl
Aw Jess I so glad you left that comment!!! i am gunna cum see you!! u will look beautiful as usual and also hella thin(moll!) haha and u will see my sexy tan!! i will b blak n u will b all white! bahaha!
aw i feel hella happy now:)
anyways today i walked down to my brothers and saw their new kitten its sooooo kute! its blak n white n really little! yeh and then wen i got bak i watched the south park movie haha jess and i always used to watch it together good times
i feel like goin to the beach...
listening to greenday longview its an awsome song well dats all
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